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Monday, November 13, 2006

Past Noon on Monday

I spent part of the weekend at work. I watched a fun kind of scary mummy movie with some of the kids on Friday night and clocked alot of drive time bringing them to different places. I did some laundry, bought groceries and cooked chicken soup for Sunday supper before I went into work.

After everyone went to work or school this morning, I just had to take a nap. Last night, after I got home I was so wide awake that I couldn't fall asleep until about 2 am. But did spend some time studying this morning while I had the house all to myself.

I think I will enjoy my student status; at least for a while. I am easily slipping into to my old habits of thirty years ago. This morning, I was reading my texts, marking up the pages with yellow and red pens while still wearing my flannel p.j.s. And I was craving mac and cheese which I allowed myself to eat for "brunch". And I am reverting to my old homework avoidance behaviors of thirty years ago. I can report to you that I am successfully avoiding my homework at this very moment.

I have missed not writing on a more regular basis, but I read daily on the adoption blogs.

And even though I haven't been writing about adoption lately, all the effects that the surrrender of my first born son has had on me, and continues to have on me and my entire family, are on my mind each day. I am still thinking and processing. And learning. I know I will have more thoughts and feelings about my son's adoption, surrender and on our reunion that I will have to write about. But later. At least not today. And I have to focus more on work and school.

As for school, I feel like that kid in the candy store.

I feel so energized in getting my license renewed and being able to focus on a new area of teaching. It is a natural extention of my original education that I completed, I am sad to say, without any passion, after my son was born and lost to me. At the time, I needed a focus. School served as that focus for me. I grabbed on to my wooden yellow pencils as splintered wooden planks in the ocean after a shipwreck.

I feel like I was the wreck.

My new area of study will allow me to put my energies and knowledge and alot of hard work into family preservation. If I can really do this, even to the smallest extent, and make a difference to just one family, I will be so happy.

15 Comments:

  • At 8:42 PM , Blogger Third Mom said...

    What will you be studying? I know you said in a previous post but I can remember. It sounds absolutely wonderful to be able to go back! Enjoy, and please tell us about your classes!

     
  • At 7:11 AM , Blogger dbannie said...

    Am off to class this morning. And I am enjoying it very much!

    My class is for teaching English language learning for adults.

     
  • At 7:28 AM , Blogger Reunited Dan said...

    I added a link to your site and I hope you don't mind.

     
  • At 8:46 AM , Blogger Reunited Dan said...

    Actually, your blog was the first blog I ever read!

     
  • At 9:43 AM , Blogger dbannie said...

    Thank you, Dan. Of course I don't mind!

    I think I appear to be kind of "stuck up" in not having any links on my blog.

    Computer technology (or any techie stuff) doesn't come easily to me and I am lazy enough that I haven't worked at figuring out how to create a link.

     
  • At 9:53 AM , Blogger Reunited Dan said...

    I hear you! I happened to stumble across how to add links and pictures otherwise mine would be a bit dull.

    Glad to hear your class is going well.

     
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