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Monday, December 31, 2007


Sunday, December 09, 2007

Since I've noticed that I still have the privilege of being linked to other bloggers, I decided I needed to write at least a short entry.

Am happy to say that I didn't go anywhere too far away from bloggerland. I have been content to read other bloggers and haven't had the strong urge to write over the past several months, even though the exponential consequences of the surrender of my son have not gone away. I wish that I could take a break from the insanity of it all. I know that some days, I work too long and too hard, just to try to keep the daily reality of it all catching up with me.

Many good things have happened in my life over the past half a year. I have had some really good employment opportunities. We really need the money. Nearly 2 decades of college tuition bills loom ahead...

aaaannnd, I am fortunate enough to find a boss who is very open to flexibility in my working days. This is extremely important to me.

Employment issues seem to be all falling together for me, just now. And that is a huge relief.

Other good things not employment related: My son was recently able to travel to see us for a visit. It was so wonderful to have him here. And, I saw his father again for the first time in nearly 3 decades. We finally spoke to one another and it was good and healing, I believe, for the three of us.

There is so much to sort through in having seen and spoken to my son's father, again. He has "lived" in my house for 30 years and has been a "presence" in my life, despite the insanity of having avoided facing him at all costs. The heaviest cost has probably been to me. However, I know I must be cautious about any further communications with him. I need to be respectful and act out of the highest forms of love for each of the people in my life and in my son's life.

So there is my short post. I am still here.

And if you are first time visitor to my blog, I will reintroduce myself. I am a natural mother who unwillingly surrendered her first born son to adoption over 30 years ago. I am not an unusual person. You will see me in many places. In fact, just about everywhere.

I am a teacher in the public school system. I am a gate agent at the airport. I am the mother to the classmates of your children. Mom to your son's college roommate. My kids play on your son's sports teams. I sit next to you in the pew on Sunday and am sometimes right in line behind you at the checkout. I am in many places. In fact, just about everywhere most people go.

And mothers like me are everywhere around you, too.